I really don't know where to begin writing about this journey we've been on with adoption this past year, but as the saying goes, "You gotta start somewhere", so here I start! Russ gave a great overview in his first post of kind of how we got here, so I won't go into that...I'll let you read his post. :-) But I want to share a little of what God has been teaching me as we wait and prepare for our next child.
My First Lesson: Not on my timetable!!
Those who know me know that I really enjoy structure, timelines, deadlines, organization, etc.... Well, adoption has REALLY stretched me! From the beginning, we started off headed in the direction of international adoption and have now been redirected to domestic (stateside) infant adoption.
That was a drastic shift, but as Russ wrote about, one that we both felt confirmation in. So, in our next step of paperwork and education, we attended an educational day on the topic of transracial adoption. This was a very enlightening day for me. I went expecting to get a few more "tools" in my belt in regards to adoption, however, I left with a completely new roadmap for the whole process! Some things were brought to my attention that I didn't even realize I wasn't aware of (obviously). I hope in the days to come to share more on this.
On to the home study process. Although it was a pretty painless process as far as getting it done, it was a painful wait for this inpatient momma!!! UGH!! The wait to be assigned a case worker, the wait on documents to be filled out and returned from outside sources, the wait for the "official" letter to wait.....you get the picture! There was a lot of waiting going on.
But even in this waiting, God was gracious to give us the foresight to use this time to pray. Pray for our future child, pray for the birth family, pray for our agency workers, etc.. And now, once again we find ourselves in the waiting stage! But this time, waiting for the arrival of our child!
As Russ stated, we have no clue when this will happen. It could be today, tomorrow, next week, next month, next year! Yikes!!! These unknowns have really stretched me again! I jokingly tell people, it's like I'm pregnant, but nobody has given me a due date? Am I 2 weeks pregnant, 20 weeks pregnant, 38 weeks pregnant? In the past I have had some general idea of a timeline so this is a new, exciting (but also a little stress inducing) scenario.
Please join with our family in praying that God continues to give us His peace and reassurance that (as the song goes) "In His time, in His time, He makes all things beautiful, in His time..."
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